Happy. Sad. Tired. Energized. Overwhelmed. Sick. And the list goes one and one.
This week has been one heck of an emotional roller coaster. Blame it on cabin fever. Blame it on the let down after the holidays. Blame it on, well, hormones. Who knows (and if you do know, please tell me!).
And then out of nowhere I read this quote on Muthering Heights:
I’d rather be a mother than anyone on earth
Bringing up a child or two of unpretentious birth…
I’d rather tuck a little child all safe and sound in bed
than twine a chain of diamonds about my [carefree] head.
I’d rather wash a smudgy face with round, bright, baby eyes
Than paint the pageantry of fame or walk among the wise
~Meredith Gray
And all at once I remembered when I’m on this stay-at-home mom adventure. Because I want to be. Because I don’t want to miss out on the little things. Even if those little things sometimes overwhelm me to the point of tears. Even if those little things cause my new cleaned kitchen flour to be spotted with some sticky, gooey substance (I don’t even want to know what it is). Even if those little things cause me to lash out ad Dad-oo out of utter exhaustion.
This is what I want to do. This is what I was made to do. This is my choice. This is my mantra, when life bowls me over, when there is never enough time, when there is not enough sleep. When I’m wishing for something that isn’t in the budget. This is what I will keep repeating to myself, until a smile creeps back on my face, and joy fills my heart.
Repeat it with me now!
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Boy do I have ever have those days! With two energetic boys stuck in the house, sometimes I feel like I’m going to go nuts!
But then they do something sweet, and it’s all worth it.
@Honey Mommy, Yea, or an extra long nap so I can regroup for the afternoon helps too!
January is always a tough month for me to get through. Like you said, I often have remind myself that this is what I want and it is worth it. But that doesn’t mean there aren’t hard days (or weeks, too).
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@Charlotte, I think the weather is a huge part. I hate getting all bundled up just to go outside. I miss taking walks in the afternoons. Only 3 more months of snow right?
@Allison, Hopefully we all make it till the snow melts. I think every year I wonder if I will.
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Alli,
Seriously thank you for this and all your updates. I’m finally HERE, entering my SAHM experience. There’s already been days that your posts floated to my head and I know whom to ask for advice!
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@Vanderbilt Wife, You are so very welcome. I love to hear that people can relate. Good luck with being a SAHM. It’s all worth it in the long run.